Not knowing what you want to do - and getting tired of being asked

It’s the inevitable that somewhere, someone across the line will ask you something along the lines of, “So… What do you want to do with your life?”. Whether that’s school, college, university, work or something else. Honest to say, that you could have your head screwed on and know what your plans are in life. It’s fair to say that being asked this question constantly, when sometimes you don’t actually know what you’re doing in life, (which is totally normal by the way!) It becomes quite deflating and annoying to say the least.

If anyone can relate to this. For example, you’re at a family dinner or with people you haven’t seen in years. Most likely the ones that are like, “oh my god, you have grown, I haven’t seen you since you were a baby!” and then go on to say “so, what are you up to now, what are your plans?”. Now it’s all well and good if you “have your head screwed on”, however if you don’t it becomes so awkward. Especially if you have siblings or other family members that know what they’re doing, they seem to compare a lot. Like “you should be more like so & so”. Situations like this infuriate me so much.

For me personally, I have no clue what my plans are. I’m in my mid 20’s and I feel like everyone is ahead of me; in relationships, having children, buying their own house, in stable jobs. So, I feel so behind of everyone else and it does upset me. Since my health has been one rollercoaster of a ride, it hasn’t exactly been my own choice to stop working. Which a lot of people don’t understand and that does make me feel mad at myself like, “why is this sh1t happening to me?”. All I ever wanted to do after I was diagnosed, was heal as much as I possibly could and get back to my “regular life”. One of them was working, but since my journey to healing has been a lot longer than I expected, working has definitely been put on the back burner for the time being.

Hey people, I just wanted to pop on here and say I hope you’re all doing well and having a lovely week so far. If you feel like you quite haven’t got everything together or feeling stuck and getting tired of being asked the same question. It’s totally normal, I had to figure out that one myself. (you’re not alone).

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Quote - “Your future is built on the days you decide to try again, even when you feel tired of starting over.