Healing while still being triggered: Part 1
Real-time trigger breakdowns (“what just happened & why I reacted”)
It’s no joke when it comes to healing after a loss/diagnosis or whatever it may be. Let me tell you, it’s far from perfect and sometimes it may take years and years to heal from it. (and that’s absolutely okay!)
So, I’m just going to run through some of my personal experiences that have changed my life completely, and I’m still on my healing journey quite a few years later.
I’ll start off when I was about 13 or 14, in school I used to have terrible anxiety in the classroom and school in general. Being in year 8/year 9 at the time, I was already quite shy and quiet, I always was. I remember in the classroom, especially in maths for some reason. The noise from everyone, (not their fault obviously). I became so overstimulated and my mind blanked out every time this would happen, it was to the point where it used to bring me to tears. There was a few times where I actually had walked out of class, because I couldn’t cope with feeling so anxious throughout the whole school day, as well as dealing with being in class. What I realised down the line was I could’ve had more help from the school, to help me additionally. But in the end, when I reached year 10. My dad pulled me out and that’s when I started online school. I’m now practising how to cope with my anxiety as now it has definitely become more apparent since being diagnosed with RA in 2024. Needless to say it has been super difficult, and I’m still working on it!
Reflection Question - What would you say to your younger self, going through a difficult time?
For me personally, I would say: It’s so normal to feel as anxious as I did, it wasn’t talked about much back in 2016/2017. So there was really no one to speak to in school, if you were in a situation. I mean that’s how I felt anyway. Also learning to cope with anxiety, even outside of school is a rollercoaster and not necessarily everyone around you will understand that. It’ll be okay when you find the right coping mechanisms and what works for you!
Hey everyone, I hope you’re all having a lovely week and wish you all well. I really hope you like this blog, it was hard for me to get into the mindset of talking about my personal experience, especially my anxiety journey because that’s still a huge struggle for me right now. We’re in this together!
This blog will be in 3 parts, so stay tuned :)
End of Part 1 - Healing while still being triggered
Quote - “You are the greatest project you’ll ever work on. Restart, rest, refocus as many times as you need to. Just don’t give up on yourself.”