Late night thoughts: Part 1
When the 2am thoughts hit there is no going back! (sometimes it feels like that)
I wish I was joking, when I say that my thoughts and my mind all together, come alive in the night right before I want to go to bed. It’s like my anxiety decides to carry on even when I’m trying to sleep. And it’s the scenarios that I cannot get out of my head at gone midnight. Even though I’m utterly exhausted everyday, I suffer with insomnia at least a few times a week and it’s not planned, it comes at you completely out of the blue!
Health Anxiety thoughts 2am edition -
Ever since I’ve had a few problems with my health, it’s actually no joke when it comes to health anxiety, and I understand if any of you are struggling with this too.
Okay, the other night I went to sleep about 11pm, knackered as usual. All of a sudden at about 2 or 3 in the morning, I woke up so panicky about my arthritis hurting when I get up in the morning. Now, it’s not every time that I worry about this, as I should be “used to it” now. But I guess this is to do with my healing journey and I’m still working on it. The overwhelming feeling of not being able to control how I feel, one because it’s so early and two, because that’s a real struggle for me. Gathering how to express my emotions is proven difficult for me, especially in the middle of the night! Needless to mention, it’s so hard to get back to sleep after these thoughts flood my brain.
Another thing that I’d like to say is, I swear whenever my brain is supposed to be turned on during the day time, for example; if I need ideas to flow through. No, most of the time this doesn’t happen in the day, and in return this happens right at the crack of midnight. Don’t get me wrong it’s not always bad, especially if I’ve remembered something I’d forgotten earlier, whether that’s important or not! (does anyone else get this?)
Hello there! I hope everyone has had an amazing week so far and have a lovely weekend ahead!
Quote - “do what you’ve got to do to be happy. Never underestimate the importance of your health and happiness and never, ever, ever apologise for putting yourself first.”