Reality check diaries - Part 1
Nobody cares as much as you think -
Hey everyone! It’s no secret that at some point in life, you’ll likely come across feeling like someone cares a little too much and is too invested in what you’re all about. Now, there is certain people that are like that and that might just be there personality type, which is fine! But, you might end up feeling uncomfortable about this (which has happened to me, so don’t feel alone.)
My example would be - I stopped going to the gym because I thought everyone was looking at me constantly and that made me feel so uncomfortable. When this did happen, I was so anxious, worried and stressed out during the whole workout. I just didn’t enjoy it the same anymore. What I learned after I stopped going to the gym, was no one actually cares what you’re doing, they’re just there for themselves just as much as you are! I noticed after I stopped going, I didn’t feel as good as when I did move my body, even if it was only a bit of cardio. So, even me having a health condition, I benefit so much from the gym. I am still learning what works for me and I need to listen to my body, so should everyone else.
Question - If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be and why?
Another one of my fears of when people stare at me, is when I suffer from social anxiety or anxiety all together. Yeah, am I the only one that doesn’t like crowds or even meeting people (this includes people that I know sometimes)? I feel like I tend to shut down, for example when I’m doing the food shopping and it’s super busy. My mind blanks out and sometimes I’ll forget what I need to put in the basket, or without a doubt every week I’ll get a headache. To be honest, I’d like to know if there is a cause for this and if there is a way I can get around it! The next struggle for me will be at the checkout most likely. The cashier will say “do you need a bag?” or something along the lines of. To most people, it’ll look like I’m staring into thin air and taking forever to put my shopping away. But, in reality my brain has completely paused. I can’t describe it properly but I physically can’t get my words out in that moment. What really bothers me is that not a lot of people will understand where you’re coming from, (and think you’re “stupid”) basically. It’s still an ongoing process for me, which some things take more time than others and that’s okay! Knowing that I’m making the effort to go out more, whether that’s a walk for 10 minutes or actually going out to the shops, that makes me really proud of myself. Even if it is baby steps!
Quote - Today’s Reminder: “Today, choose to see the good in every situation, even when it’s hard. There’s always something to be grateful for, and focusing on the positive will help you find peace and joy in the present moment.”