Life Unfiltered - Part 1
How can one small inconvenience ruin your whole day? (Let me know)
I actually think the world is out to get me today, I wish I was joking! Okay well, it’s never that serious but it definitely feels like it, when there’s only a piece of thread hanging on for dear life!
I woke up bright and early this morning because I needed to be out the door by 09:00. So I took it upon myself to get as much stuff done as I could manage, in the time I had before leaving. Tell me why something as pathetic as dropping a clean spoon on the floor just after you’ve washed it up, can take a toll on what my day will look like? Is it just me?
When I left to go do the dreaded food shopping, I knew that it was going to be a crazy day ahead. I say dreaded because I just find it so stressful, even when it’s to buy food for the week. I haven’t always felt like this, but after covid and dealing with my anxiety, I don’t see the fun in it anymore. Apart from the fact of eating that is! I don’t know about any of you but I get these crazy headaches, without a doubt every single time I walk through the supermarket doors and it lasts for a good while afterward. I have always felt so alone because feeling this type of way, makes people automatically think. “oh you’re putting it on for attention” or “you’ll get over it”. And it really bothers me that “Us” the ones that have this “silent battle” actually fear so much of, what other people might say and looks say a lot too.
Question time -
Have you ever done something so stupid and people have seen?
You may ask, why have I asked that question. Well I’m going to out myself for something I did not even that long ago, that to be honest I feel so stupid for doing.
So, for context I’m 22, and I’ve been driving for about 4 and a half years. Not literally, but I passed my test that time ago. Anyway, I don’t know how to describe this sort of a “glitch” I thought this event was. One evening I went to go put petrol in my car, doing this many times before, I didn’t think this time would be any different. Well, when I got to the station, turned off my car, as you do and I locked it. I went to go and open the petrol cap, struggling I was for about 5 minutes, thinking why the fuck can’t I open it. Then I thought, oh maybe because it’s a cold evening, it’s frozen shut or something. A car pulls up behind, and this guy sees myself confused and annoyed with the situation I’m in. The one sentence he said was “Have you locked your car?” I replied “Yes”. He then said “Try unlocking the car”. So I did… Yeah in the however many years I’ve put petrol in I’ve never had this error before! Needless to say, I felt so fucking stupid and even more so when I think back to why I’ve never had this happen before. If this doesn’t scream “I’m just a girl.” I don’t know what does.
Hey people! How are we all doing? I hope you’ve had a lovely weekend so far and wish you a great week ahead. Thank you for coming along with me as I tell my story and I’ll speak to you very soon!
Megan X
Quote - “ Every time you feel like giving up, remember why you started.”